Over here on my little island we're just coming out of level 5 lockdown. For the last month, we've been dealing with a massive cluster of cases along with one of the Covid-19 variants. It appears to be settling down now. We've had the longest provincial election ever (which still isn't over, by the way!). We have a vaccine plan now so the ball is finally rolling on that.
I am genuinely not sure what day it is because of how repetitive everything has been. In fact, I started using a planner not because I had anything to keep track of, but because it's proof that something happened each day. It is not a very big planner, just an A6-sized one. I've also been spending a lot of time playing Stardew Valley. It's taken me three months to watch a single season of Supernatural (because I figured I may as well watch the entire show now it's over. Yes, I know it goes off the rails after like season five. No, I don't actually care. I don't watch television so much as have it playing in the background and randomly glance at the screen).
Sometimes I forget what words are what. I am pretty sure my grammar is shot. I have no idea how long it will take for this to correct itself, but it's something that I've seen other people struggle with too as a result of the pandemic. I spend a lot of time just staring at a screen going, "Why can't I make the words make sense?" because what's coming out doesn't make sense to me. And if I can't make it make sense to me, how can I possibly make it make sense to anyone else? I'm at the fourth (!!) rewrite of something I started about a year ago, because I keep running into the same problems over and over again. (And yes, I know someone is reading this going, "uh, shouldn't you just maybe give yourself a break and do something else?" which, yes, I do that and then I run into the exact same problem with entirely different, new stories! It is not great!)
And I've retained absurdly little from anything I've read or watched in the last year as well. Goes in through one eye and out through the other. It's like having a hole in my mental bucket (and with what shall I mend it, dear Liza, dear Liza...). I have not picked up any new hobbies, because it all seems like so much effort. On the plus side, I can say that I've never had a better sleep routine. Which is probably the only plus side I have from the last year.
So yeah. It's been boring and repetitive here. Every day is like the last, but sometimes with snow and sometimes with rain. And I'm going to go reread Homestuck for the first time in like three years because I need something to distract me for several weeks.
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